Thursday, February 19, 2009

Thanks God..

Did you ever talk to God above?
Tell Him that you need a friend to love.
Pray in Jesus’ name believing that
God answers prayer.

Have you told Him all your cares and woes?
Ev’ry tiny little fear He knows.
You can know He’ll always hear
And He will answer prayer.

You can whisper in a crowd to Him.
You can cry when you’re alone to Him.
You don’t have to pray out loud to Him;
He knows your thoughts.

On a lofty mountain peak, He’s there.
In a meadow by a stream, He’s there.
Anywhere on earth you go,
He’s been there from the start.

Find the answer in His Word; it’s true.
You’ll be strong because He walks with you.
By His faithfulness He’ll change you, too.
God answers prayer.

I learnt this song recently. This lyrics very touched my heart.
I cried b4 but God really answers my prayers.
My "big rock" disappeared.
I knows He send many angels around me.
To console me. To make me happy.
He gives me everything He can give.
I Love Him. Thanks God. Haleluyah.

P/s: Who has this song? Can send to me?
Or can tell me where can download?
I cant search at all... T.T

Sunday, February 15, 2009

石头

好久好久没有生气人了,这次我真的很生气。真正生气一个人,原来真的很辛苦,心里好像有个好重好重的石头压着,呼吸困难。每当想起这个人,我的心不自觉地抽痛,甚至难过得哭起来。我,原来真的非常生气了。

这几晚,都睡不好,很担心这个人会对我做出什么,甚至很担心电话响起来,怕妈咪打电话来告诉我一些我不想听到的咚咚。不敢告诉他,我真的很痛苦,真的不想看见这个人。可是因为他,我必须面对,甚至偷偷摸摸。这个感觉,没人明白。好想打电话给我的姐妹,告诉她们我的不开心,我的重重的石头。可是,我提提不起勇气,告诉她们我面对的复杂。她们也不能帮到我什么。而且,我也会破毁这个人的荣誉,甚至他的荣誉。这个人最爱面子的了。因为这个人,我甚至忘了我最好的朋友的生日。不知道,她会不会怪我。因为这个人,我的心情非常不好,甚至看到他为我准备的情人节的浪漫,我没有我想象的那种兴奋。只是感动,会心一笑。我不敢让他难做人,也不敢让妈咪难做人,甚至妈咪也会受委屈,所以只好忍着。

主啊,我好想饶恕这个人,可是很难做到。主告诉过我,只要我饶恕别人,主必饶恕我。主告诉我要爱我的敌人。这真的好难。我做不到。我告诉过自己,因为主,因为他,因为妈咪,因为自己,一定要饶恕这个人。可是真的好难,我一时之间真的做不到。主,请给我时间。也许时间能令我淡忘一切。主,请怜悯我帮助我,替我搬走这个石头,我的心负荷不了。

现在,我能做到的,只有忍耐。我只能息事宁人。我只能避免见到这个人。可是我知道,我避不了多久。因为他,我必须见到这个人。而且还要假装很喜欢这个人,很尊敬这个人。希望我能做到。但我知道我的心一定在流血。好想快点长大,不让人欺负。好想他也能快点长大,独立了,那我就能不再面对这个人。写着写着,泪也停了。原来写blog的确能发泄。真的好想快点长大... 我不要再呆在那里,被这个人攻击,我,必须保护我自己。如果我已经退一步,这个人还在攻击我,我一定会还击。我,刘依琳不是真的好欺负,能忍受委屈的人...